Hundred over Sixty

I have slept like never before in the past few days. And by that I mean 14-16 hours a day. That’s a little much. But there was nothing I could do, really. I would get up, eat something and then go right back to bed. Then repeat. I only had energy for about 30 minutes a day. Enough to get up, walk to the kitchen, drop a few edible items in my mouth and walk right back to the bedroom.

I have never experienced anything like this in my life. I know I am not depressed. I’ve been depressed in the past and it was a completely different experience for me. This time it was my body that refused to cooperate with my mind, not vice versa. I would lay there and think, I need to phone so and so, I need to get this done, I need to go here and I would feel guilty. But my body would not move. No matter what.

I would stare at my arms trying to will them into moving, but to no avail. They refused. Never have I ever experienced anything like this. I know I need to get up, I want to get up, but I can’t. Plain and simple.

I was beginning to get worried about my health. And so were my parents. I feel slightly better today, since I only slept for 12 hours. And I think this is due to a combination of several things:

• Low atmospheric pressure
• No sunshine for the last three weeks
• Constant rain for the last three weeks
• Low blood pressure

I have started taking vitamins and bought lots of fruit juice. I have to start walking/running soon, to help my body function as it is supposed to (that is, if I can will my body into getting out of bed and trick it long enough to get it outside into the nasty wetness that is Estonia at the moment). Oh, and I should tell my husband I want to move to a tropical paradise where the sun shines at least 360 days a year.